Pantang?

Okey. Although I am not a 1st time mother but to handle an infant after 5 years, it surely feels like 1st time!

So funny that the 1st night we brought Imaan back home, she cried like every 30 minutes I keep on stuffing her small mouth with my boobs one after another but she keep on crying only to find out that she had pooped and the stools all dried already people! Imagine we took her home around 3pm and around 3am we still haven/t checked her diaper. Hehe. Lousy parents. Isk Isk. After she got changed, instantly she fell asleep and finally mummy & daddy get their beauty sleep too.

You see, it is a different experience all together with every child. At least for me.

Anyway, what's not so different with each and every time you have a child is the amount of unwanted advice and remarks you get with people about how you handle your child. We get that a lot. Some people think they know everything & boy they are irritating! Well this time, I'm a bit well prepared compared to when I delivered my 1st. I gather a good support system and warn them that I'll be whining a lot and please just listen to me and tell me I'm right even if I'm wrong. Hehe. It works! Haha. I feel a lot better this time.

Pantang days are the most challenging days for me. Not the pain of delivery and not even the episiotomy wound! To be at home for 44 days freaks me out. I HAVE to go out and I need my ME time (read: shopping). Selfish? Yes sure but I believe I need to be happy 1st for me to function as good mother, heck a good person! So hiding me in the house for more than a month do no good to anybody around me. But sure we need to comply with the universal pantang rules and not wanting to upset my mother, I give in.

20 days now. Another 14 days to go.

P/S:So tell me. What do you do in your pantang days to keep you sane?

2nd Born : Raisa Imaan

I thought I am gonna blog religeously during my confinement but boy I was so wrong!

Oh btw, those who does not know yet, I've delivered a healthy baby girl on May 20th, 2013 9.49pm. It was an induced labor because my doctor was going for a long vacation with her family on my EDD and I am so stubborn to deliver with her.

It was a painful and full of drama delivery. Hehe. People said 2nd baby easier to deliver, all lies! Hehe. This one I suffer longer time in the labor room. But it went away just like that after I held her in my arms. Clishe I know.

We named her Raisa Imaan. Princess of Faith in arabic. Through out my pregnancy, I wonder how it is possible to love 2 children at once. I thought that I have given my love whole heartedly to my 1st born Rania.. But God gift is the best. I fell in love again and again with Imaan and finding my heart aching for unconditional
love to Rania. Now I know how it feels.

Rania is doing great as a big sister. She helped me a lot. Just sometimes she want me to held her close and hug her to sleep. I am trying my best to make sure she doesn't feel left behind. She is so close to me before Imaan came around and I intended to keep it that way.

Imaan on the other hand drinks a lot. Poop a lot. And sleep a lot. Hehe. What else can a 14 days old baby do? I am looking forward for her to grow bigger because I am naturally not good with babies. Haha. Their constant need for feeding exhaust me and the sore.. don't get me started on that!

Me? I'm pretty much in a good shape. The delivery wound heals so quickly. My energy level back to normal. Just my emotion is like a yo-yo. One minute I was perfectly fine and another minutes I was holding my tears. But nothing to worry about (i guess) hehe. I keep on reminding myself that this phase with be over soon.

I miss my office to be honest. I miss having to dress up to work, i miss the workloads, and the good times with all my friends. 24/7 with kids at home (especially because the smaller one constantly attach to my breast) is mind blowing. Not even online shopping can make me feel better. Haha.

Weight? Hmm I dare not looking at the scale now. Because I eat like nobody business (which is good!) But I do miss my run. I wish I am in a good shape after my confinement so that I can kick start my run routine as soon as possible.

I think thats pretty much covers all about me and the kiddos. Hopefully I will get my mojo back and start to write again. (Been wishing for that for 3 years now)

Till then! Here's some picture of Imaan and Rania.

For the Love of Leggings!

I'm a girly girl. I certainly love to dress up.

The only thing that motivates me to wake up every morning is the challenge of dressing up with whatever I have inside my wardrobe with this 37 weeks huge tummy. I do not have much maternity line to wear because I feel such a waste to buy something that I will only wear for few months. Plus, I do not plan to get pregnant again anytime soon (read:forever. Hehe)

I am most grateful for the invention of nice printed leggings and the fact that it is the current "IN" thing. Means that leggings are easily found in any stores! If not I will have to surrender and buy all those expensive and hideous maternity pants. Hehe. Speaking of which, why is the maternity pants so expensive?

But having to wear leggings while pregnant means that you have to know how to work it. Obviously "some" of your body part expand together with your tummy. A long cardigan/blazer can tame the bulge from showing while a tight tank top will enhance the cute tummy (so that someone will volunteer his/her seat in the LRT for you. Hehe)

Of course the other way will be pairing your leggings with an oversize long tops. Your choice. :p

My outfit of the day:-
Black blazer from Pure Career & tank top from Tesco.
H&M legging
Yellow small scarves from Bawal (Aidijuma)
Black Jelly Shoe from Jelly Bunny
Bag from Charles & Keith

Happy Birthday My Love! My First Born.

I am not the kind who bond directly with my baby the moment I knew their existence in my womb. Most of the time, I forgot that I am pregnant except when they do their kung fu moves.

I was in a bad shape after I delivered my 1st born. Not only I felt like I am not ready, I felt clueless and I was too proud to ask for help. I thought that motherhood just rolled easily that every women will transform into a mother once they gave birth. Boy I was wrong!

It took me a while until I understand how to become a mother. Made a lot of mistakes, cried buckets, and I lost count of how many times I felt like quitting but hey who am I kidding? I can't just walk away!

Fast forward 5 years, I've learned a lot. A hard way I must say but masya allah.. Allah knows best. He gave me a child to teach me about life. To change me to be a better person. To make my life even more wonderful than it has been.

I love this child to death. I cried sleeping at night randomly just because i feel so blessed to be given an opportunity to be a mother. Not just to anyone, but to the chirpiest, well-behaved, smart, kind-hearted little girl I've even known. (All mothers feel that way towards their children huh? Hehe)

Happy Birthday Rania Hani! I promise we will rock our years together till death do us apart. You have my blessings, my du'a and my forgiveness of everything you did, and will do in the future.

Point of View

My view lately. Getting heavier is no fun. I salute mothers who miss 9 months of pregnancy. I know I am not and I wont.

Due in another month. I can say I don't do much preparation this time but more on mental preparation. Still remember how miserable I am during my 1st delivery. Young and naive. Haha. I bought a stroller way before my due complete with travel system but never bought any nursing bra or breast pump. That's the level of "naiveness" I was! Haha

Hope for the best this time around!

XOXO

Superstar : Etude Wonder Pore Freshner

I was browsing thru a magazine the other day and came across an advertisement promoting Etude Wonder Pore Freshener. Decided to give it a try, I was shocked and having a cheapo moment the second I saw the price tag. It's RM70 yaw! Ohh.. Don't be fool by the word freshener, it is actually a toner!

Since Etude is not the kind of brand that I heard a lot and it is from Korea (I never have thought that products from Korea can be that pricey), so I hold my thought from getting it first. I tried getting a sample from the SA but they said they have none. Pfftt. Afraid that the money will be wasted if it doesn't work wonder to my skin, I passed.

Then few weeks after, I saw my friend who was on vacation in Korea holding Etude's paper bag. I quickly whatsapp her to buy for me a bottle of the freshener since it was so cheap there and they also have few sizes. Y to the E to the A to the Y!

So yesterday was the 1st day I tried it on and it felt good. Love the smell, and the way it makes my skin feels. Not like the usual toner which sometimes makes me feel uncomfortable. But hey, it just day 1. At least give me two weeks before I can give full review ok?

Notes: Thinking of getting the moisturizer too. My Kiehl's will be finish in a week or two. :)

OOTD: Electric Blue & Dusty Pink

I don't really fancy blue but electric blue is an exception. But my most common problem is the color of hijab that I want to pair to complement the color.

Decided to go with dusty pink and it matches my super cheap necklace I got from Red Revenge (Paradigm Mall). Go check out their collections especially their clearance sections. Price dirt cheap starting from RM5. Worth every penny!

Tops: H&M
Necklace: Red Revenge
Scarf: Fana Couture (www.fanacouture.com)