Motherhood (times 2)

I have a confession to make.

When we had Rania 5 years back, we had a maid from the very 1st day. So, I don't have much experience with newborn. In fact, I don't remember anything about how to take are of newborn! The maid and my mum handled Rania during my 2 months maternity leaves and I was so busy... well, being depressed. It was not until Rania was around 3 months old that I can finally accept the fact that I have a daughter and developed a strong feeling towards her. Before that.. She was just a little baby and I have very little memories of how was it feels during the first 3 months.

Different story with this one currently!

Imaan is so attached to me that it is impossible for me to do anything! When she cried, nobody can calm her even my mother give up. That's huge you know because my mother is so good with babies. She can only sleep if i craddle her. She is so clingy that she always wanting to be held. By me! I experience the whole motherhood feelings (the beauty and the ugly) times two with Imaan.

Allah itu maha adil kan?

Anyway, me with my endless "3 months leaves" plan went kaput because this time around we don't have any help and it's ramadhan. So there's no manicure or saloon session I dream about. Forget about spa session as the longest time I had a relationship with my bathroom is 5 minutes. (T_T). Shopping? I don't even have time to be in front of the computer. When Imaan was asleep, I was so busy..umm sleeping as well!

So yesterday, we planned for a bit of raya shopping plus fancy iftar. Since no one is available to babysit Imaan, we brought her along together with Rania and ohhh boy it was so tiring! She refuses to sit on the stroller and crying when we tried to baby-wear her. And she did not sleep like OMG Imaan 2 months old usually sleep all the time why you no sleep??? Pffttt! Also Rania, being a 5 years old was so busy playing with a balloon and running here and there in the the huge Midvalley crowd. I was so scared that she might get lost somewhere or being taken by a stranger. Pengsan I tell you! In the end no baju raya or whatsoever for them because really.. I can't function like that. But of course mummy managed to grab a shoe and 3 tops from MNG (OMG they're having a huge sale!). Hehehe. Mummy has a PHD in grabbing her own things and pay for less than 5 minutes. Hehe.

So the conclusion? No more outing with them both after this. No more.

My outfit of the day:
Peplum kurung top that I paired with my faithful blue jegging. Bag from Kate Spade and shoes from Jelly Bunny. Plain Green Tea hijab from Artsy Attic. Imaan as accessory.